WELCOME TO DINO LAND (SALINASAURUS)

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Just gotta blog bout today...This morning, i went to school earlier because i was involved in a Maths Trail activity which was planned to be conducted at the Esplanade... in the morning, everything was kinda rushy but its still okay...

THEN...a bunch of students got into a fight with one of the other school student. CHAOTIC SIOL!! hahaha Thats not the eye opener for me...not yet..It was chaotic yes but it was kinda normal to me...One of them got injured (nose bleed, swelling) and so had to be sent to the hospital for an xray..and so i had to follow him there...He didnt wanna go to the hospital at first...The esplanade security guards called me in to talk to him n so i did.. i asked him why he didnt want to go...he said i just dont wanna go ar...typical rebellious naughty boy kinda way... n he kept on repeating without giving any reason for not wanting to go...

Me: Why you dont wanna go hospital?
Him: Dont want ar cher..i dont wanna go ar...
Me: Im not asking if you want to go to the hospital or not...You have no choice, you Have to go to the hospital to check your swollen nose...
Him: Dont wanna go ar..walau...bad words.....that boy....
Esplanade Security Guards: Why are you so rude!! How can you talk to your teacher like that!!
Him: Walau i dont wanna go hospital la!
Me: Do you want me to call your parents?
Him: Call la! Fuck they dont care one ar!!
Me: How can you say that?! Fine now i care about you so ull still have to go ok?
Security guards: Why are you so rude to your teacher?!! How can you talk to your teacher like dat!! (at this point, the security ic got pissed and pulled him to the side to scold him some more...i left the room to call the teacher in charge..hehe)
(In my head..i was thinking...im not his teacher loh...im not even a teaching staff..i never call myself teacher ar...i always say im with/from the school...but its too complicating to explain sia...so call me whatever you wanna call me la...ill try my best to behave like a teacher should...)

when i was making the call, the paramedic came to me and said that he agreed to go to the hospital but with his friend coming along..n so i said i dont mind as long as he goes to the hospital...so we set off...while walking to the ambulance..he came up to me and said cher..sorry ar....so i said hey nevermind....

at the hospital, i got to know him better...personal life, character...then his father came to the hospital...some scenes were really really funny...like his father pointing out on his every uncultured characteristics....i can really see that the father care alot about him...but he's just too rebellious and the father will give up in time to come. He actually said out that he wants to send him to boys town and refer him to the police...like super sad ar..there goes his future...

sometimes i really wonder if someone will persevere enough to help these kids...n sometimes i wonder if its worth the effort and time to try to change them...One channel to do this is by being a teacher. Yes it will be freaking draining to do it but is it worth the effort, time, unstable blood pressure??

Some still can be saved...some needs extreme hard work and still wont help...now i know why we need a full time councillor....have to be like super super patient sia...gosh god help her...

so far, i have gathered a few ways to make these kids think....
- ask for their ambition and make them see if they are heading/getting there..
- make them aware of the kind of environment(Singapore) they are in...
- Life without parents....
- Make them think of their parents...how hard they work to support them...
- Make them understand the frustrations of their parents/teachers...
- explain why people nag at them..
- Conduct an exercise with classmates to know what they think about them...follow up and explain...

* i miss the reflections we use to have during RE in SAC..especially if its conducted by miss karen..erm i think..not quite sure about her name ar...too many teachers in mind...but i hope if i become a teacher, i can conduct those kinda reflections like how she used to do it..her voice damn soothing ar...wahahahahahahha

most importantly, investigate the kind of family they come from, who their friends are, get to know the kinda history they have, build rapport with them to make it easier to make them open up...i really thought about all this throughout the day today..esp in the cab omw back to school. I think today,ive grown wiser and understand not to judge students by how they portray themselves...

Today made me want to become a teacher more...but i need lotsa work with the teaching part ar..ahaha!!! shit man....its ok...man man lai...like what ive heard....the further you plan, the harder destiny will hit you....so now dont plan too far..ive got to finish my contract first... k peeps..i hope you guys will see some meaning in this post..its a special one...walau 12.45am and im blogging loh!! hahaha so yea i shall stop...FULLSTOP

{11:14 PM}