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Sunday, October 08, 2006

Whatta week...

One of my uncles passed away on Thursday night. He was a good man. I only knew of it on Friday morning..after sahur. N i was shocked. After work, on Thursday i called home n my sister answered the call saying mum wasnt home, was at the hospital. I had the urge to call my mum to ask what time she will be back cos if she's coming back home late, i wanna go to the hospital to see him for the second time. But i didnt. And so, i didnt get to see him for the last time. Not even during the funeral cos there were so many people. He was only 55. It was so sad...ive never seen my grandpa cried like that...Well, whatever it is, life goes on...lots went thru my head when i thought about what happened...

Life, my parents, my sins, my behaviour, religion....a lot. Most of the time i thought how my family will be if we were to lose our dad or mum forever. Came out with no conclusion eventhough i know one day, it will definitely happen...

Its easy to think of things but to put it into action is something else. We always take things for granted when we have them...eventhough we appreciate them once in awhile...and will realize only when we lose em. I dont really know what im talking about cos im being so general now...but its whats going thru my stupid brain...Hmm i think i need some time for self reflection..to think about things...

i miss the times in SAC when we will spend a few minutes of silence to reflect during our RE lessons or even during assembly. Sometimes we will have a few minutes of silence to just listen to our surroundings...Its been such a long time since i did something like that.ive always liked those moments...it relaxes the mind and self reflection really helps an individual to see themselves and try to improve...

i tendered my resignation on Wed...n so my last day will be Tue,17/10. They already have someone coming in to replace me on that Monday..fast or what... She's a degree holder some more... I wonder how she will be when she finds out what she will be doing...Study so hard for a degree and end up reading someone else's emails, printing them out for him, sorting them out...and when he's done with all the papers(within 15 mins), do filing...n of course let him nag at you for doing a lil mistake...(compulsory for newbies) Besides that, when he's outside, he will call u up to do this and that for him....OH...and every morning, update his calendar, wash his cup and fill it up with warm water...hahaha...omg the best part is sorting and filing the long outdated emails the previous girls left behind in torn boxeS under the table. Oh n not to mention finding his scribbled workings that he made when he quote to his customers..god help you if the workings are in the boxes under the table. Gee, im so glad im leaving...may the new girl enjoy herself sitting right in front or him somemore..lucky thing he's only there half a day... i came in with so much hope and positivity and look at me now..lolz

dont even have time to check emails...im sick of reading emails...cos thats what i do everyday at work...gosh myra should be fined for flooding people's emails...lolz

I hate the haze..its so scary on Fri night and yesterday afternoon..Thursday nite i was at kampong Glam...n it was eerie having thick haze n not many people around..i didnt think the cab driver could see us cos we ended up calling one. N yesterday afternoon...it was so intense that i almost ditch my frens..hahaha.. I didnt put on my contacts cos of the haze...when i was outside,i experienced eye irritation and it was a lil hard to breathe..n they say i was bullshitting...if i was i wouldnt go out u asses! gee sometimes i feel like punching some people...especially when they r being rude and it was totally uncalled for...

HMM..guess thats about it for now...u peeps enjoy ureselves...n sorry cos ive not been in touch much..Just keep in mind ure all loved okayy...a few people missed me?...i missed u guys too mannnnn..whahahahaha... gonna cut my hair next week i think...its getting harder to maintain..thinking of highlighting red..whaddoya think??

Peace outz

{9:12 PM}