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Sunday, September 03, 2006

ok im blogging now...i guess i can only update once a week. right now...at the moment, im in my pessimistic mood and i feel kinda like shit. but i know the shittiness wont last long..haha wth am i talking about...hmm its just one of those days when u just feel like shit...and shit sucks!

n so u ask...why do i feel like shit? i guess it sucks when reality hits u...when life changes....and u have to move yourself on. Working life changes people into adults..i hate it...adults dont have much fun...they dont say my favourite words like SHIT or U ASS!! or NABEY n stuff like that.they dont disturb people much n they dont act fierce n joke around much...they dont irritate people purposely and they dont insult jokingly...whats wrong with them?... If i were to say... u ass!! at work, people would look at me like im some alien i think.. it sucks! i so dont wanna grow up sia...

The things that bother me at the moment...

i really really miss the times in school.... SPSU...camps...chionging for events.... sisterhood n brotherhood...if only i can turn back time...haiz~ the thing is, if we were to meet up now, its different n nothing can be done about it. its just part of growing up...never thought growing up would be such a sucky thing.im a changed person..i dont talk that much cos i kinda feel sad that im changing...n i dont know why...sometimes i get angry with myself as i wonder what the hell am i doing....making mistakes n acting like an idiot. its really obvious....for example....the things i blog about...i used to blog about funny stuff....conversations and things that happened that are funny...but now, my daily updates (if i were to update) would be...i went to work, now back at home n going to bed...tmr's another day...

Other than that,

-i always dont know what to wear to work!!! it sucks!!
-i hate working life but sometimes its kinda cool.
-i hate having to work with grumpy people.Theres this particular girl in the office...i feel like slapping her face everytime i see her..hahahah
-i hate it when serene (trainer) hold me behind after office hours..but she's nice so its not that bad la...
-i hate having to clear the paperwork that the previous girl left behind. BITCH! she just fucking leave stacks of shit on the fucking table!!
-i hate to wait for no 9 bus especially when its sooo freaking long...after 6
-i totally need a new shoe for work.
-i cant listen to the radio in the office.how can people do without music!! its too quiet!
- i want my freedom
- i want to pass my driving so bad

theres a lot of other things la actually..hahaha but i just dont like to be pessimistic...cos when im pessimistic ill start to feel unhappy about things n then ill start hating things then things get worse...so for all u kids out there...cherish ure school life..its the only part of life where u can have REAL FUN... sometimes i feel like quitting but then its stupid cos then that would suck more...my motivation would be my dad ... hmm i dont like this post...it makes me sound so depressed n EMO!! haha!! i told u it wont last long...thank god!!

neways, went out with suzhen, senthil, sharyfie, guna and jag just now..its great meeting them again after so long...still dont get to see yongshun n immanuel...hahahah i miss them!! i love u all!!! we ate at al sheikh...the place was nice la...but expensive n the serving was small...guna was still hungry after what he ate..hahaha typicalsss

tmr my cousin's getting married n i HAVE to go!!! my mum is forcing me and ET to go...ET wanted to overnight in school but my mum said what u know? she said "ill box u if u overnight in school..u have to go to the wedding!!" it was soooo funny la!!!imagine my mum punching ET..wahahahahah!!! oh!! i went to GH just now to see my sick uncle..i really hope he gets well real soon! lets all pray for him cos he's a really good person. Neways, i saw someone who looks like khai!! but he's a little shorter...omg so handsome la!! wahahaha oh n jag bought 8 Days n theres Shan Wee in there...so handsome!!!! ahhhhh!!!!

neways i miss u all n i love u!!! i just wish im more outspoken...oh nooo whats happening to meeeeeee..

{12:46 AM}