WELCOME TO DINO LAND (SALINASAURUS)

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

I had a nightmare the day b4 yesterday...i dont know if i was really disturbed by the devil himself..haha. i was sleeping and i kinda got conscious for awhile and i saw a black figure near my sister..he then stood up and go towards the door..i could see his silhoutte cos it was quite dark in the room and the sleeping light is in the hall. So i was looking at him with half opened eyes...kinda like peeping. I could see a lil bit of the face and it was scary in a weird way... He then kinda saw me and came towards me in a psychotic way, turning his head from side to side...i was sooo scared that i could hear my heartbeat going faster and faster..i shut my eyes tight and said some prayers, trying to calm myself down...then when i felt calm, i slowly opened my eyes again and he was gone...it was so real but i like to think of it as a dream...

The next scene was about this psychotic guy who keeps on coming back to my house to kill my family members..n it was so ghory as he only kills with a shart small knife...stabbing and cutting ppl up. He kills all but me...when i had my own family, he came back to kill my family again..i tried to escape thru the window, jumped down and that ended the dream...gosh..it has been so long since i can remember a dream this well...n its been so long since i had a nightmare sia...Anyways, thats about the dreams part...

This morning was the happiest morning ever...Normally, we seldom talk in the morning cos everyone's like kinda dragging ourselves to work...Well, yesterday, i got an sms from my cousin saying that my uncle met with an accident (but now he's at home recovering)...so yesterday,i told the whole family about it and responded to my cousin n all la...my third sister was asleep when the family knew about it...and this morning, she woke up, her hair all over the place, she shouted, "Mak! Abah accident!!!" I was in my parents room and i could hear her screaming...My mum then scolded her for giving her a shock shouting like that so early in the morning..saying i already told the family abt it the night before...i couldnt help but burst out laughing loudly when i heard them. It was so funny the way my sister shouted and the way my mum got shocked...hahahahahah walao damn funny that i was laughing to myself when i was wearing my clothes and omw to school...Damn funny loh!

when i reached school, automatically signed into msn and i saw yongshun! haha had time to catchup abit n all. Well, ppl always say the grass is greener on the other side...i guess not all the time..i hope everything goes well for shun and that he can enjoy his life in san francisco for the next 3 years..god help him...

{11:07 PM}

It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 am, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's, arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry, as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.

On exam it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer Disease. As we talked, and I finished dressing his wound, I asked if she would be worried if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him. "And you still go every morning,even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said. "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is." I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought,"That is the kind of love I want in my life".True love is neither physical, nor romantic.True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there are some that come along that have an important message, and this is one of those kind. Just had to share it with you all.

Oh, by the way, peace is seeing a sunset, and knowing who to thank."The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;they just make the best of everything that comes along their way."Please share this with someone you care

{2:54 PM}

Monday, August 11, 2008

I had a funny dream..the thing is, i dont exactly remember all of it...

But ill just blog down whats left in my head...for now...

I remembered it wss about yesterday's function. We went to Yongshun's aunt's place for a farewell dinner. It was special cos it was so called my first steam boat, it was the last time we will be there and also because EVERYONE was there...Full Strength siol...Boy did we eat alot..eat like crazy..Anyway, thanks to yongshun for organizing it..he always does it well..

Omg theres dinosaurs on Disney Channel right now..haha!! One of them just died...sad...

anyway, back to the dream

there was this scene where me and fie were sitting down on the sofa and shun just came along and said..."eh fie..i just wanna congratulate you for completing 5 k around bedok reservoir...i mean you could do it man... guna and senthil couldnt..." i was there so i said.."eh 5 k only..i also can loh..but slow jog ar...guna and senthil cannot run 5k meh? walao!"

Seriously, how stupid is this dream...but its like damn funny sia...i always have dreams in different scenes..so its more then 1 storyline...and the thing is its sooooo uncommon for me to actually remember the dreams. I think i dream everyday..unconsciously...cos ppl around me always say i talk in my sleep.

Another scene is when we're like small lil ants roaming the place. The heartbreaking news is that i know something damn funny happened cos i remember laughing about it when i woke up but i totally cant recall what happened now. DAMN!

Ok i think this post is so damn stupid...

{11:09 AM}

Monday, August 04, 2008

Dear blog,

with all due respect, i am writing to always remember this disappointment...

My 3 good friends, Senthilgumar, Mr Lauw and ESPECIALLY Gunaseelan (see too much lan liao)..have disappointed me...

Well, Senthil got a job at The Highlander (a Scottish bar) and because its scottish, the workers have to wear a kilt...aka a SKIRT! Even before he started work, when i found out that he will be wearing a skirt, i hoped that he would get the job and i will excitedly go visit him with the rest to see my dear 'Mr legs like 11' in a skirt...

Well, Senthil got the job and ive been wanting to go over to his workplace to visit him...and among all, Senthil and especially Gunaseelan! knew how much i wanted to go see Senthil in a skirt...Everytime we meet, I'll ask him, EH!! When r we going to Senthil's workplace?!! And ill get sooo excited...well, apparently, i have lost the excitement..i think...

A few days ago, Mr 11 legs came on my msn and told me that Guna & Mr wisdom teeth no more came over to his workplace after eating chappathi for lunch...My response?

Walau ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
You all *toot* ok!!!!

i felt so disppointed that i teared..So senthil got it...Then yongshun got it..Today, Guna just had to massively get it...because...as usual, guna was being guna...

It started off when i saw him come online while i was doing school cockpit data entries...with a trademark worrying nickname, i asked as a concerned friend...

Guna, are u ok? And he says why? u very free izzit? (see...hostile already)
So i said no im working but im a concerned friend...so he said he's ok...i asked, r u sure? He says yes...(as if i dont know there IS something he's just not telling me and i respect that)

So i said fine...since you're ok, i wanna scold you!
So he said what!
Me: Go Senthil's workplace never jio! then he laughed!! How you found out?
Me:U especially knew how much i wanted to go over rite! When i found out.i wanted to cry ok! Then try to hide from me somemore! Still ask how i found out somemore!

Guna: I took a picture for you what...

Then must wait for me to say then admit! I dont want to go over already..its too late to apologize....its toO lateeeee..i am so disappointed!

Then there was a pause...

Guna: I think ur angry cos ur hungry

(SEE LA!!)

Me: no ok...dont try to talk cock with me now

guna: aiyah. we can always still go wat

Me: no im not interested already

guna: why so petty
gheez
ur actin like we're in a relationship

(!!!!!)
Wah! He still say me loh!!! Know im angry already then add more fuel!

Me: oooooooooooooooooo
NOW SAY IM PETTY SOMEMOREEEEE
WHAT RELATIONSHIP

Guna: okok
its called frenship
and pls dont blog abt this
haha

Me: LUCKY U SAY FRENSHIP
OMG! WHAT A GOOD IDEA
IM GONNA DO JUST THAT LOH

Guna: hahaha

Me: THANK YOU FOR THE IDEA

Guna: yea ur welcome
thx for makin me famous

Me: u bloody idiot (end)

so here i am!

i continued doing work..Then i was talking to yongshun about dinner tmr..then after that we're going to senz workplace i think...Told him im free for dinner tmr..so guna said..

Guna: so wat
u lied to urself
say u don't want to go but then now ur goin

Me: NOW U MAKE ME ANGRY AGAIN
U ASSHOLE!!!!

Guna: (trying to change the subject) ur not goin to have lunch?

Me: WHY

Guna: just askin a carin question

i didnt reply after that...seriously, no more comments man...

{1:45 PM}

Monday, July 28, 2008

Not that difficult
It's not that difficult to be disciplined. It's just a matter of choosing to be, again and again.

It's not that difficult to avoid destructive habits. In fact, all you really must do is nothing.

It's not that difficult to take positive, productive action. You simply choose to put yourself into motion.

Success is not that difficult. It's mainly a matter of doing it, and you're completely capable of doing whatever is necessary.

Your willingness is the most important factor. And willingness comes when you connect to a solid, meaningful reason why.

Discipline, integrity and effective action are tools that you can use at any time and in any situation to achieve valuable results. Follow a purpose that is truly yours, and it's not that difficult at all.

No limitations
If all your limitations were suddenly removed, what would you do? If you were able to make absolutely anything happen, what would it be?

If there were no challenges standing in your way, where would you go? With absolutely nothing holding you back, what would your life become?

It's easy to get so caught up in pushing against your limitations that you start seeing yourself solely in terms of those limitations. Yet you are so very much more.

Instead of identifying yourself in relation to the challenges you face, dig deeper and find the real person inside. For the truth is, you exist apart from any challenge or limitation, and it is a powerful exercise to get solidly in touch with who you are.

Yes, there will always be obstacles and limiting factors. And the best way to get beyond them is by knowing that they do not define you.

Imagine a world with no limitations, and discover who you are in such a world. One by one, the challenges will fade in the distance as you express the limitless vision that is yours to live.

{10:10 AM}

Monday, July 21, 2008

Get busy

A small, simple action is infinitely more effective than a big, complicated excuse. Instead of putting your energy into avoiding effort, put that energy into the effort itself, and you'll get something of value in return for it.

There is something right now that needs to be done. Imagine how great it will feel to have it finished, see what a heavy weight will be lifted from you, then get busy and get it done.

In this moment, in this place, you have a valuable opportunity. You can make something happen, and you can make a difference.

Forget about judging whether one task is difficult and another task is easy. Don't be concerned about figuring out what is pleasant and what is unpleasant.

Just take a deep breath, sit up or stand up straight, and with a steady and confident sense of determination, get busy. Soon you'll find yourself moving rapidly toward real and fulfilling accomplishment.

You can worry and complain about how nothing ever gets done, or you can take it upon yourself to make a real and positive difference. The moment for action is now, so get busy and convert this fleeting bit of time into an accomplishment that will bring you value for a long, long time.

Truly impressive

Always know that what other people think of you is their own concern, not yours. Do what you know is right, and fully accept that others will think what they will think.

Certainly it is valuable to make a good impression. Keep in mind, though, that the best way to make a good impression is not to worry endlessly about what others think.

The way to make the best impression is to be authentic. Allow the goodness that is within you to shine through your genuine courtesy, kindness, respect and consideration.

By caring so much about receiving validation from others, you prevent yourself from getting it. Instead, share your real value with those around you and that value will be clear for all to see.

Don't waste your time and effort keeping up appearances. Put your attention and energy into real solid substance, and your appearance will take care of itself.

The more you strive to make a good impression, the less successful you'll be at doing so. Just relax and be yourself, and you'll be truly and authentically impressive

{10:25 AM}

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Today, 9 July 2008, aka Senthil's bday...Sharyfie made me wanna punch his face...

I was super busy at work..running here and there and still stuck with doing the principal's video...and i was still coughing like nobody's business with swelling under my left eye...

It started off when i sent this sms to everyone (Fie, Senz, Guna, Sue, Mike, Shun, Jag, Choo, Jinfang, Ziyi, Manuel) when i was in the hall with the Malay dancers...

Salina: Greetings my LOVES...on friday, u ppl wll b meeting at clarke quay mrt control station at 6.30pm...key care bear to contact would b mr lauw in case ure bo sim ly late...tell him ure lame reason n make arrangements...you all will b eating dinner at cafe iguana...pay 4 what u eat n after that, we will chill out smwhere till late nite..me n manuel will join u for the chillout session. dont miss us too much...love, the hostilityless saurus...(at the moment only)

Little do i know the words in brackets at the end of the message was right...Other ppl replied nicely...Fie, on the other hand replied...

Fie: Crap.

I thought it was an expression like...shit i dont think i can make it...or crap! i have something on! so i replied...

Salina: What crap? U can make it rite? Just now i call u u off phone loh

I was being nice rite? N he said...

Fie: Eh. This is not junyuan sec okie. Can fun fun msg people. What you want!

Walau...i was in the hall with the malay dancers...i felt like calling him to scold him loh...just look at the bloody exclamation mark at the end of the msg!! but i thought ok nvm maybe hes having a bad day..just like mine...cos he's working also mah..so i said...

Salina: Why u so hostile ar..i wanted to ask u la if cafe iguana is ok or not. 4 u...cos they not halal, got alcohol all...out of concern..walau u think i got no work izzit..

I think i was dammmmmnnnn nice loh...see the word concern...? He said...

Fie: I foresee myself coming late. Unless my office becomes like junyuan sec. Then maybe i can have more time. I shall join you guys later. But i dont mind.

Waaaaa!! Cannot tahan already...so i said..

Salina: Waaa...i very patient u make me angry already..u just wait till friday...

Fie: Already junyuan sec behaviour. Angry angry. But i am sorry.K. Peace. Peace....

After pissing me off so much, say sorry n try to make peace...after everything..peace can GO KISS MY ASS OKAY!!!

Salina: Bloody hell...u just wait i tell u..

No more messages from Fie....when i came back to my desk, i shared this with senthil cos he was online...its so easy to make fie lose...we just have to post a picture of him doing something..then make friend with the brother..wahahahahahaha damn funny! n since its damn funny..it made my anger go away..a little...im still gonna nag at him on Friday...Just thought i should blog abt it while i can remember...

{4:43 PM}

Monday, June 30, 2008

Wow..its been a long long time since i last blogged. I just have the urge to blog now...Not at home, i never have the urge to blog at home unless when im alone or i really really really feel like it..most of the time, ill be watching tv when im at home..or sometimes, cleaning my stuff...

Wow alot of things have happened since i last blogged. Well, ill just type out the things i remember in my mind right now....

Went to australian uni fair..idp fair and signed up for a few courses hoping to go australia to study now. I dont know why but i realise that im always 2 years behind people my age..like right now, im thinking, i should have done what i did 2 years ago...nevermind that, the good point is that im more prepared then i would have been 2 years ago...if you know what i mean la hor...

Finally get to go to Hatyai with my mum and Et. Its like my third attempt siol...and because of that, i missed my company's 2nd year retreat in Batam...O well, im glad i went to hatyai though...quite a lot of things to buy but i didnt really like splurge there cos theres Bali after Hatyai...haha

on the 13 June, i went to Hatyai by coach...reached the next morning siol! My pantat pain siol....anyways, hatyai was a new experience cos ive never been out of Malaysia and Indonesia before..wth rite..yea..hahaha The highlight of the trip would be the bapok show..walao they POWER to the MAX sia...i jealous..hahaha but then again, im like the original dino and they are like soft toy dino they sell at pasar malams..haha i dont know why i used that. Anyway, yea some of them are just gorgeous...cant stop looking at this particular bapok who is like soooo pretty..and the body..wah lao ehhh...

Before the trip, there were some complications la..im suppose to go to Bali with the usual suspects on the 17 June...flight at 6.20am. My mum told me we are coming back on the 16 June so i thought ok la...just nice mah...what my mum didnt tell me was we will only reach sg on the 17 early morning...and im suppose to be at the airport around 5am. So...if theres any delay, i might just miss the flight to bali then im dead...so i tried to find alternatives..be it coming back earlier or going to bali later...after investigations, i finally decide to take the risk...fortunately, i reached home early! i reached home at about 3am...still had time to shower and pack some stuff...

Bali was simply amazing..blessed with beautiful beaches and skies, i had the most fun in my lifetime...erm so far la...i did alot of things i wouldnt do in singapore...haha which includes absailing, banana boating, snorkelling, full body spa,white water rafting, riding atvs, another full body spa, clubbing, feeding monkeys (eventhough singapore got alot of monkeys loh). The best part of the trip would be bonding with the usual suspects.I feel lucky knowing those people cos we can just talk about anything and have lotsa fun when we're together...theres LOVE man..Unfortunately, this group of friends will go separate ways by end of this year...i dont know how it'll be like but i hope its not too bad la...

Dont know why i dont feel like going home today...Got my pay which i will have to pay back my debts with..hahaha went to Plaza Sing to get my dad a classy vest..hope he likes it later..then decided to hunt for a coffee bean to get my favourite tea latte with double vanilla..walao nice siol!! i hope the tap at home produces it..hahaha or if somebody's ass produces it, ill marry that person no matter how ugly he is..whahahahahahaha...

Anyway, i had an emo moment which id like to share when i got back from Bali...i feel bad cos i didnt give our driver in Bali a hug. According to yongshun he was expecting it but i just shook his hand cos everyone else just shook his hand..haha like Duhh!! when i reach home at around 4am i think, i placed my bags nicely to one side and saw 2 letters for me from idp...i got accepted to macquarie uni and rmit...still waiting for the other 2 to reply...so i felt really grateful for that and i could feel that things would change...was thinking if i should really go for it...and then, i turn on my laptop...checked my email...saw an email from my GM saying im one of the top ccpes in the company (3rd)...and won $1500 each to go for an educational trip with the other 11 ccpes. then i just couldnt take it anymore and cried...thinking so many good things are happening to me now and i just felt grateful...

The next day, my mum told me that my sister will be getting married next year and that one of her daughters will be leaving her home...i then told my mum that i got accepted and im gonna go off by next year to study too...assuring her that ill check out the arrangements and make my decision...she then got emo telling me that she prefers her daughters to be in front of her where she can see them...i then took a few days to think things thru...now, after thinking alot, i know that i WANT to go...

So now, im gonna check out the financial part of going over..not cheap i tell you...and yea, im leaving...on a jet plane....dont know when ill be back again...hahaha...

Makes me wanna cry leaving so many good people behind but i know i wont regret getting on this train later in life...

Peace...

{9:03 PM}